Thursday and Friday.

6 months have gone by! Those 6 months which, it seems, not too long ago I was looking at questioning whether I was going to make it…. done. Sometimes there is so much to write that I feel it is best to not write anything at all… but writing nothing does not feel right either!!
What I need is the “!!” in chess. The “?” is a bad move, the “?!” is an interesting, but probably bad move, the “!?” is interesting, out of the box move, the “!” is the right move, conventional, and the “!!” is reserved for the one-of-a-kind move. That move that is not in the theory and is just so perfect.
I compare it to just the right words to whisper in your clients’ ear during the massage. Or just the right ingredient in the food, the ingredient that leaves people asking “what is IN that?!”. That is the “!!”, those are the words I need to describe, in a few sentences, how I feel about these past 6 months.
In those sentences are would include how much my perspective on people has changed, how listening to others open their hearts and share their process has opened my heart to be able to really hear them! How we all started together but not together, then went through phases of so together that we were one, and how now I feel some have reached puberty and want to run away from the parents whereas the others are in a state which can be described with either an analogy to having bypassed puberty altogether and embracing those last moments with their family, soaking their wisdom as much as they can and experiencing the unconditional love that sometimes arises in those ephemeral moments, or like the infant who was just born and is being blinded by the light at the same time as enjoying the warmth of the suckling, enjoying the unconditional love which is all they know. I would include the bond (not the attachment) that has developed between myself and many of my partners; to them I would say, again, “I love you”.
I would include the love I feel for the new group of beautiful human beings that have joined the school, that I want to embrace and welcome every day I see them!